Well, maybe not exactly. Let me explain.
Early in July, I was looking at my calendar and realized that after I returned on August 2 from a business trip, I had absolutely no work left on my 2010 calendar. I began to worry because, with all the battles we’re fighting at this point in our lives, my husband and I really need my extra income. (Not to mention the fact that I’ve grown quite fond of eating!) I immediately took my worry to God; He immediately reminded me of a prayer I prayed back in April.
In my April 15 post entitled “Has Anyone Seen God Lately?” I wrote about a list of 5 Impossible Things that God wanted me to do. I mentioned that I faltered on the 5th one so God did it for me. Well, that didn’t exactly pan out like I thought. You see, the 5th item was, “Quit URS” (my current job), but I just could not give up that paycheck. Then my manager — the only person who uses my contract services — left the company. I thought God had worked it all out because “no manager” meant “no work” for me — or so I thought.
Rather than BUST, my job went BOOM! May, June, and July were filled with more work than I’d had in a long while. I thought, “Oh, no. God is not going to do this for me. Apparently He wants me to take the step — no the leap! — of faith, quit my job, and then He’ll do the impossible and provide for me.” I thought about quitting; I prayed about quitting; I talked about quitting; but I couldn’t quit.
After a couple of weeks, I fell to my knees and confessed, “See, God? I just can’t do it. My flesh is too strong and my faith is too weak. I know that You can do all things, but I can’t. I just can’t quit this job that pays me so well at this time when we need it so badly. Father, I don’t mean to be disobedient but if you want me to quit this job, then I need You to do it. For me, it’s impossible.”
As I sat there that hot July day, looking at my empty calendar and remembering the prayer I had prayed, I marveled at how completely God had done it for me. The BOOM had finally turned to BUST. When I say I had no work, I mean I had NO work: no business trip to take, no training to present, no projects to complete, and, thus, not even emails to answer. I looked up to heaven and said, “Okay, Lord, now what? I’m trusting you to come through as You always have. Show me how we are going to make it without this job.”
My friends, within 1 hour after I prayed that prayer, the phone rang. It was my nephew. “Aunt Donna, how would you like to go to work with me?”
Well, to make a long story short, I am now fitting heart patients with the LifeVest (a wearable defibrilllator) while they await heart surgery. Over 400 patients have been resuscitated by the vest this year alone! I’ll be working with people at a very critical time in their lives and helping to calm their fears. And, I won’t be traveling so that I can spend more time working on my writing ministry.
When I hung up the phone, I thought, “Hey, I’m in the resurrection business! I’m helping revive tired, physical hearts back into life-giving action and helping revive tired, spiritual hearts back into wholehearted devotion!”
Yes, I know: Only God is truly in the resurrection business. But I’m so grateful to my awesome Father for hearing the honest heart cry from his scared little child. He heard my confession and moved on my behalf. From my heart to Yours, Father, I love you!
For God is greater than our hearts,
and he knows everything.
1 John 3:20b
(PS: Please forgive my lack of writing. I have been snowed under trying to make the transition from one job to another. Right now, I have 2 jobs vying for my time along with my personal life that’s pretty active right now, too. Hopefully, things will calm down soon! After a month of silence, thank you for returning!)